I just told the boy that I’ve known for months, that I have a competitor, and I know I can’t fight her, she gives him things that I can’t give. But she humiliates him and I don’t do that part. How complicated it is to know that they say they want to get out of it, leave it, even taking medicines that the doctor has given to addiction, but I believe that they deceive themselves or she can be so strong that I already know she is. They like it, so they say they want to stop but it’s not true. I don’t know how far I will take this guy, he went out Saturday night to get drugs, and he had been without coca for almost 2 weeks, and we could be together having a good time. They are really wonderful, loving, kind, and would be even better without it. I think about getting out of it, because I’m already suffering too, and we’re not even boyfriends, because he already said that it would hurt me.
