Hi Kellie,
I’m so sorry to read your post and see how badly affected you are by your husband’s addiction. It must be very hard for you to keep strong for your boys.
If you would like some support please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports the families around addicts and we have trained and experienced people you could talk to that might help. They would also let you know what other help there is out there for you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the very best to you.