Hi Tiredmam, welcome to the forum. I’ve read your thread, and want you to know you are not alone.
Everyone here has a loved one with drug or alcohol addiction. There are also people in recovery offering support and advice.
If you click on ‘share your story ‘ and read the Theresa thread, there are several mums , myself included, all with sons with addictions.
We are all here for each other and offering support or advice, even just to vent!
The forum homepage has support also the Icarus trust offers help and advice.
There is no need to feel alone in this. Try and look after yourself, find pleasure in the little things.
Take care and be strong.
Lx