Coco1212, how are you doing?
It’s heartbreaking yes, it can be. You can’t let it get you down though, he’s so lucky to have you.
As much I don’t like to wish ill of people, I hope that dealer is caught for whatever it is he’s involved with. Many a time I’ve wanted to punch a dealer in the face, and I’m the most non-aggressive person ever.
Sounds like your guy has a lot of unstable relationships to hide from, seems like you’re the only stable thing in his life. Is this lack of support for him just because of covid, or would it be like this anyway? When my bf attended drugs rehabilitation it was group sessions, they’d all drink mint tea and share stories, he was given an acupuncture bead in his ear, but it was just a little plastic ball stuck on with some nursing tape. He took it all seriously and I think he enjoyed the chats, but it didn’t make a difference to him. I think he genuinely needed 1:1 counselling, I feel like your guy would benefit from that too, but I have no idea how he can get some.
He disappeared for a day. It was enough to remind me to stay real about it all, but thankfully he’s still doing well! I’m not saying a thing to him. It feels like we’re in a good place again, still a long way to go through.
Xx