I’ll be completely. I don’t know if I have cut off completely. I told him not to contact me again. Got a really horrible reply (which is just not the man he usually is, so I knew he was using).. I blocked him. I then unblocked him. I don’t know why. But I know inside how strong I am now compared to a year ago. And I have acknowledged that the trust is gone. So there’s no hope. I wished him well in the rehab and said I’d pray for him. But the last week or so, I’ve found peace. I have absolutely no inclination to contact him.
The last week BEFORE he went into rehab, he was using. He gave his new number to all the same old scumbag addicts and dealers. I was utterly exhausted. I was becoming ill again. So I cut off then .. mentally and physically.
I look at my life and think ‘what am I missing? Lies, tears, abuse?’
You want the man back that you fell in love with. Because he’s loving, caring, sweet, funny. It’s Jekyll and Hyde. Any of this sound familiar? Right now you are not someone special to him, you’re collateral damage.
So find some time to sit alone and think, what do you want? How can you put some space between you and him so you can set up some boundaries, to protect yourself?
Don’t bother with ultimatums. They don’t work, he will break them and you will move them. I started with establishing my own space, my home.. and he cannot and will not ever get into my flat again. I wouldn’t even answer a call. A text maybe, but probably not. Only because of the strokes I unblocked him. But if anything happens to him, his family would let me know.
Let me ask you, if it was a friend in your position, what would you tell her to do?