Hi,
I have posted my story few weeks ago. My husband is still denying his addiction. I found some cocaine in his pocket a month and a half ago. We have 3 kids, married for 16 years.
My hubby has been acting weird for few years, but I thought it was just work stress, booze… He lost his job last February and since then it has been just worse and worse. He can’t get up before 4pm most days. Disappears for the whole night few days a week. There is a pattern.
We are now separated but still living under the same roof. I am moving abroad in five weeks. Can’t wait! He signed the authorisation fir custody.
But he still still didn’t come out. I guess because of the custody. He wants a no fault divorce… not sure what he wants really.
I found viagra and cialis … condoms. He says it’s to use with his sex toys. So humiliating. He hasn’t been able to have erections quite often for over a year before we started sleeping in different rooms. Now, I guess it’s not my business but of course it hurts a lot. I still love him deeply 🙁
He takes anti-depressants and diapazan as well… Sudafed. All the cocktails. Refuses to go see a proper GP. He uses the at hand app. Had a therapy for two months and the guy didn’t see anything.
This is so frustrating not to be able to do anything. I want my children to have a father 🙁
I am so concerned for his health that I often go check he is breathing in the middle of the night. When he is there… most days I find him at 5.30 am drinking champagne in his office… alone.
Few days ago he had another episode when he seems lucide in the middle of the night and restless. Says he had vivid dreams…
I have stopped trying to confront him. I am concentrating on getting out of here with the kids. But my curiosity is still unsatisfied. I need to know the truth…
I am most worried about the combination of cocaine, diazepam and viagra plus anti-depressant .., and knowing he get those either prescribed or on black market and not giving the full health information to whoever takes his GP at hand call.
All very sad and stressful 🙁