I wish I did have control, I wish we both did had enough that we could stop them being this way.
You made a good decision not to have children with your husband if that is the way he was. He may of only got worse.
With my last pregnancy it came as a shock there was a fairly large gap between them and I wasn’t sure I wanted to do it again. He did, so we decided to go ahead little did I know that just before I gave birth he would start this horrendous habit. Im glad I’ve had my baby but if knew what would have happened I’m not sure i would of. I fell pregnant again after but obviously knowing what he was I didn’t carry on I live with that guilt all the time. Him on the other hand hasn’t gave it a second thought.
Hope your OK xx