It is very hard.
I am leaving in just 4 weeks now. Trying to do on civil mode. We have 3 kids, and he agreed for me to move with them abroad. I have been now preparing the move for 3 months. Lots of paperwork…
We signed a separation agreement early October but as he is unemployed he still hasn’t paid the lump sum neither did he take me out the mortgage he soon won’t be able to pay. It stresses me a lot.
But my family helps me a lot and I am moving to a country where the social benefits are really helpful… it will help me start fresh.
I still love him deeply but I am also very angry and mostly sad. It’s an unbearable pain. Especially as we are still cohabitating… but with children in the picture i have to take it step by step.
He continues to try to make me feel guilty of everything 🙁 So unfair…
But I try to repeat to myself that this is a different person. Hard.