Coco, he’s sabotaged me. He brought up in conversation me calling him a scummy crack addict earlier this year, forced me to admit if I thought that was true. Which lets face it, sometimes he is one and that’s what I said. He’s basically sabotaged me into telling him he’s a failure, now he can say f the world, f her, and just get on it again. I’ve told him this time, I’m not going to fight it. If he wants to try and think, me, the person on this earth who cares more for him than anyone, believes he’s a failure, he’s got another think coming. I’ve told him not to ask for an apology.
This all started because we were talking about goals, things we each want to achieve. He doesn’t acknowledge his goals because he’s scared to be labelled a failure. Instead he said his only goal is to wake up every day. Which it isn’t, he’s trying to gain weight and get driving again, he knows I fully support that.
I hope he doesn’t self destruct now, but what can I do?!
Forcing myself to just leave him now, hoping he’ll come to his senses!
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