I have to say, that’s not what I expected, sounds like he made an effort. Ok, so he’s missed it for the weekend. That’s two days, if he can’t get it elsewhere, I’m hoping you’ll have a chilled weekend and that he’ll bare the cravings, keep a cool head. I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you xx
Things got worse here, he’s been quite nasty, saying things about my behaviour and body (I’ve gained weight on lockdown not swimming, not doing my classes etc, who hasn’t big deal!), and when I say I can’t fight it anymore, I literally can’t. It just makes me feel now I don’t care if you don’t support me, I don’t care if you want to be crewel, this is all in your mind, it’s not a reflection of my behaviour or who I am. It doesn’t bother me anymore, I have no more to argue back.
I decided not to call his sister, I figured what’s the worst that can happen! He’ll get on it, maybe he’ll go out try steel some stuff to do more and end up in a cell – always a possibility when he’s really chasing the buzz. And I thought, if that’s the silly choice he wants to make, that’s down to him.
This morning he apologised, but I just can’t be bothered to talk to him. For the first time in forever, I just want some space and being with my mum during covid, coincidentally, I have that. What do I do from here?! Just going to go with what I feel, and right now, it could go either way. It’s a bit disappointing really, to say the least.
Xxx