Hi LauraJ
Thank you for sharing your story. Its very hard when you don’t feel able to talk with family and friends but I’m glad you’ve found this site as there are some really good people on here who I’m sure will help you.
If you feel that it would be helpful please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for families around an addict as we know how hard that can be for everyone.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.