Hi skat,
Thanks for reading my post, it is so difficult living with an addict, and I seem to have found myself doing it more often than I should have accepted.
My partner is on a massive binge at the moment and he can’t seem to get himself out of it, he hasn’t been going to work so is at risk of losing hes job. He owes drug dealers money where he is constantly ticking…I send nearly every night on my own and he will come in at say 5am and then sleep for hours and hours. There used to be a time where I would constantly go on at him to sort himself out and to go in to work and worry, but now I have stopped because if he really wanted to do it he would do it. Dont get me wrong I worry every day/night about what could happen, can I afford my life, my house, my bills….but I have never relyed on hes money so I know I can cope without him. He is at the stage now where he just sits on hes own and if I mention it or ask him if he’s going to sort anything I just get shouted at and told to leave him alone.
You try and put on a brave face, do the washing up, the hoovering, cleaning, baths, washing, making sure everything is running smoothly, but at the end of the day its draining. Its draining trying to hide there addiction from other people, I even looked in to rehab, but privately it is so expensive, and I wouldn’t want to pay that sort of money for someone that could come out and get back on it. If they really want it they no where the help is, they just have to make that first step. Hope you are ok, and I’m here to chat. X