YGZR, thank you for posting. You mustn’t feel ashamed, I’m grateful for you to offer your support, I think, in reality, I’ve got a solid grip on things in my own mind, if anything, sharing my experience here has just helped me bring to light what I already knew. But for me, and I don’t know if you’ve read back this entire thread, and I feel it’s not just me, but for me, this moment in has become really pivotal. I’m not sure if it’s a consequence of Covid, and I suspect that is partly to blame, but now is absolutely the time to be connected with people. That’s the other thing I’ve tried to do here.
It’s my belief that addiction is such an underground problem, it impacts so many people and the suffering and battles fort lost and won are all, to a degree, hidden. I too believe there is a solution, not in the form of a magic pill, but perhaps raising awareness is somehow on the right track to finding it. Personally I think unless production of these illegal substances can be completely stopped at source, the problem of addiction will always exist and will just be something to be managed.
I definitely can relate to your situation and if I can, although I’m not too well placed to do this, I’m not a professional by any means, but I’ll try my best to support you also by sharing my experiences. You are not alone and I think you’re so brave to reach out.
Just curious, and you don’t have to answer this, but is your husband a drinker in my experience, coke and alcohol go hand-in-hand. Just wondering if that’s the case for you.
Sending care and support xx