Hi ash2013
Its definitely a living nightmare, day in day out.. I know what you mean with not enjoying any occasion because they just ruin it from the start, your on edge all day and the build up to the day.
They find it hard to just sit down and relax and watch a film or TV with there family, he spends most nights away from home, he doesn’t answer hes messages or calls, I sent endless messages and he may reply to one saying he will be home soon. But always ends up being 4/5am in the morning. I don’t think I’ve slept properly for months, this time of year is supposed to be a happy time, with getting presents sorted and visiting santa and buying the Xmas tree, but instead I end up doing most of it all on my own because he hasn’t come home, or is stuck in bed for days on end. I dread going to anyones house for drinks or anything that involves socialising with him, because he instantly ruins it by getting cocaine. And when he is high its such a waste because you cant talk to him because he is on another planet. I’m glad I found this site though it seems to help me vent my anger and stress from it all. X