Coco1212, I don’t think I’ve heard so much frustration and anger before in your sentences, are you ok? With your children changing their views must make it tough, what do they know about what’s going on?
I would call addiction more a dysfunction. My perception is people usually try it either because they’re bored and need to escape, or because they have regrets and dissatisfactions they wish to block out, likely there are more than these, but these are what I’ve had experience of. You’re right though, it’s a lifestyle choice, but to a point in my view. I know that only one use of crack can create a slight dependency and need to rediscover the same feeling, I’ve always guessed that only intensifies with time.
My bf is still quiet, he won’t see his dad, he isn’t calling any of the family back, he’s just doing what he wants to pass the time. It’s only been a week since I last saw him, but almost out of nowhere one of his teeth has gone totally black. I haven’t seen that of him before. Also, he has a tiny bald patch in the strangest of places, that did start over the summer, but it’s totally clear now. It makes me wonder if part of his brain has suffered so much trauma rhat it’s beginning to show in his hair. Also, his lymph nodes are up again all over his body – this has happened once before when he was totally on it. I don’t know what to think! I’m worried but in a way also not worried. Yes I care about his health, but what he does to his body is his own choice and a reflection of those poor choices, not mine xxx