Talk to anyone you can D&T, icarus helped me.
Don’t suffer in silence. I’m 45 and having lived with an addict for the majority of the last 15 years, I have PTSD and anxiety because of how I was treated, how I dreaded situations, how I reacted etc.
Don’t let yourself get to that point. Your happiness is the most important thing. You really do have to be selfish and look after number one, and 2 (your child).
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