Hiya ash2013
Thanks again for your replies, I feel I am on simular levels as you where when your husband was using. I’m honestly so drained from him, if I’m working he is on the phone as moody as sin asking when I will be home and exact time. Constantly dictating my life, yet he is out constantly having hes cake and eating it! Like he has a work Xmas do on the 23rd Dec, he says I have to find childcare cover so he can go…… and normally he looks after our son on Saturdays as I work most Saturdays, yet just lately he has said he is working because he knows he will get paid for it so he can get hes drugs! I have said to him this can’t be a permanent thing as I can’t keep finding childcare cover. And not seeing any of the money he earns.
So I end up skint, searching for childcare all while hes out of hes head.
I can never relax or make plans and actually enjoy them because its constantly on my mind that he will somehow ruin it.
He talks to me like absolute sh*t when he’s on a come down and then he has this sudden burst of fake energy where he will walk round the house as if I’m invisible and whistle and just throw nasty little comments every now and then. And act dad of the year! This is when I know he wants to get more drugs, because he’s moods are all over the place.
I’m 30 and should be happy and enjoying my life but feel its just drifting away because of him.
Just don’t see the point in me getting him any help, because if he really wanted it he would do it himself. X