My family found out last year July, I had had enough and came out with everything, told everyone….he then went on the missing and dint see him for months. He then decided he was going to get clean and go to meetings, I feel that he only really done all this to get me back.
I gave him another chance, and for 3 months he was clean, then he slipped up and then kept relapsing if thats what you want to call it.
I rent my home and its just my name on everything, I could leave but just don’t have it in me for some reason to leave. I don’t know whether its where I have become weak from it all or what. Its mainly because I need him for certain aspects of childcare when I work, and he plays on that all the time, so basically because he knows I need him he just does exactly what he wants.
Like tonight I’ve cooked dinner done housework the usual things, have said to him could he collect our son from hes childminders at 5, he agreed this at 4pm, he said he was just going for 1 beer with a work friend. 5oclock comes I receive a text, oh sorry I’ve lost track of time just finishing my pint could you collect him? I was fuming, and so upset because I knew exactly what was coming….he will be out now for the whole night because he has obviously got it on tick again!
Am supposed to be taking my son to see santa at the weekend and I’ve told him he’s not welcome as he ruins everything before it even happens.
Thankyou It feels so nice to be able to talk to somebody about it, especially how I’m feeling right at this moment. Xx