Coco1212, all eyes are on you or your eyes are on you? Who’s really watching really? Are you fearful of failing with your bf, or of failing the family unit? His addiction isn’t down to your failure, it’s his and it’s down to him to acknowledge and take a stand to improve the situation, which he clearly recognises because he’s getting support.
You’re caught him out with his mum then, it infuriates my bf when I do/did that. I bet that didn’t go down well. Well done for forcing him to see the wrong, brave of you. Well done for taking a stand. Does his mum know what he was doing?
You’re so right, it’s fear of losing me. Thanks for keeping me grounded. I do know my self worth, I also know his, I remind him of all his non-drug-related qualities, but I’m not afraid to walk away.
His son has taken a stand and told him that after a lifetime of crack he’s had his fill and it’s time to slow down. He’s become really worried about losing him, he’s seen the changes in his body recently, just as I have. My bf actually listened to his son I think, although time will tell. For now, hopefully it seems he’s back in the room, back in touch with the family, me, his son, and not tucked away with some group of addicts passing time. This weekend one of his ‘mates’ gave him a joint laced with brown. He didn’t realise it at the time, but felt totally sick and unwell after. He threw up and really wasn’t right, we had plans to look at more flats, but I ended up just picking him up from his son’s and taking him home. I cooked him a massive roast chicken dinner with all the veg, gravy, and a dessert. He tidied while I cooked – the house and was a mess! His body was really achy, so I gave him a proper fuss. It was like rubbing over a horse or puppy. He just stood there hands on the ceiling while I shook out his legs, shoulders and arms. That seemed to really help. He was back to his self again within a few hours. A little win to me.
Xxxx