Hiya,
I’m sorry to hear about your son? How long has he been clean?
Unfortunately we’re in a generation where most people do drugs and drinking to oblivion is funny and it’s normalised too much.
Before I knew my partner had a problem I use to do cocaine with him most weekends for the first few months of us being together and I’d never touched cocaine in my life. It’s only until I met him and then realised he’d do it during the day and did a lot of it and couldn’t stop doing it is when I knew it was an issue so I stopped all together.
Believe it or not we went for meetings every Tuesday and then every Wednesday he’d relapse. He said they made him feel worse and more tempted and told me that he needed to find his own way. So I had to trust him and that he would do it.
So he deleted social media, gave me his phone to delete and block all drug dealers from his phone and anyone that he associates with drugs. He moved in with me and my family rather than staying home because his dad also has a drinking problem and never helped him other than financially. I would drug test him randomly for a couple of times a week for about 6 months and My boyfriend cut down on drinking and partying massively and now he hardly drinks.
But sometimes when he drinks he drinks too much so I worry and get anxiety because it’s not just the drugs I worry about it’s the aggressive side of him that sometimes came out, he use to runaway and not come home until a day later, he’s called me names and picked arguments for no reason and all of that gives me anxiety.
But now he’s better, I still suffer just from worry. I haven’t spoken to anyone professionally but speaking on here makes me feel a bit better and understand and forgive myself a bit more x