Coco1212, What happened? Why don’t you think it went ok?
I feel the same, it really gets me down too. I’m totally being ignored now. I’ve just been offered a big piece of freelance work, which tbh I’ll struggle to do, it’ll be over Xmas and I really just want a break. But the money should be good and as my bf isn’t doing anything to maintain financial stability, I feel under pressure to accept it. I tried to talk to him about it and he said I’m being all negative and told me to stop moaning, but what he’s missing is that I don’t want to do it and really I’m only doing it to support him, or rather so I don’t have to tell him I can’t afford to spend all the money I do on food and transport.
If I tell him the only positives are that, he’ll just throw it back in my face.
It’s so hard to know what to do for the best. I just want him to say “it’s ok, I’ll not waste all my money on crack and will be able to afford to feed us so you don’t have to worry all the time” – or something along those lines. But no, that’s not going to happen. I’m giving him the best of me and leaving nothing for myself.
I get that there’s a lot to be thankful for, but there’s also ways of making life harder and it feels like that’s all we both seem to be doing. Mostly because of his addiction. When will life just be a bit easier.
Xxx