She still doesn’t give value, and blame you for.. you just tried to help her and her kids, you were better than she deserved, because anyone would stay so long being so mistreated. They have the cocaina and other drugs as their life, cocaine remove empathy, judgment sense, and most addictive are narcissist, because they want pleasure that a human being can’t give in a way that cocaine do. I read so much about nucleus accubem..a brain part, that I was going crazy, trying to know the addiction to handle with the addicted. Was lost of time to help him, but this helped me to see that they only care about themselves.. . Even more if they don’t want help and to get out first place. Many people here that have drug issues and they are trying to make huge efforts that I think admirable! But our savior behavior problem glue us on thoughts about them, to solve their lives, because we don’t want to look to ourselves and our suffering to not find someone better, then… going after their dilemmas, distract us from ourselves and our own pain. Is one day after another… self value. Once here, I read something so painful (many things but..), if you have no kids with them (your own), RUN LIKE THE WIND… I don’t remember who wrote this, but in portuguese, is so tough to think about that… RUN LIKE THE WIND, before you get attached, that you get involved…. before!!! In 5 months I’m broken ???? and you with 7… more than me. And I suffer with you and I hope you get better each day my unknown friend.
