Coco1212, the thing with life, as I keep telling my bf boyfriend, is you have to show up. My doesn’t show up often. When he does life’s fantastic. The rest of the time it’s like coasting. You can’t be penalised for others not taking part in life, that’s just making everything hard on you.
And don’t worry about the sleep thing, just rest when you can. I suffered with terrible insomnia for years, I’m recovered from it now (to a degree). I used to be so fearful of not getting enough sleep that I couldn’t fall asleep. Turned out just to be circumstantial though. When the things that sat heavy on my mind were resolved or no longer affected my life in the same way, my sleep just went back to normal. I’m back to falling asleep at the drop of a hat again (most of the time). We’re very sensitive little things our bodies. Take care of yourself as much as you can. Xxx