What I meant by the feeling refreshed bit was that when I was using the feeling of being without any drugs and in the case of heroin the feeling of being in withdrawal or (rattling as it’s affectionately known) was phycologically one of the worst feelings I’ve experienced but when you have been and got what you need those feelings are all set to one side and it’s like a huge relief you feel great about everything. Of course this is an absolute load of rubbish I was at a stage where I was getting about 15 mins of a ‘buzz’ from the crack and just using the heroin to stop me from feeling ill.
As a child I had everything I wanted and needed from my parents. It was just the choices that I made that led to me living in active addiction for 14/15 years or so.
I think your partner will care about you, however the drugs will pretty much always come first until he’s at the point where the drugs are just something that used to play a huge part in his life.