In my opinion Coco the crack is the thing that is the hardest to get away from the heroin withdrawal is obviously not a pleasant experience in any way but I didn’t get a buzz off the heroin I just used it to take the edge of the effects of the crack. I absolutely hated everything about the heroin. I used to smoke it on a pipe like you would do with crack (a separate one) I know most people smoke it off tinfoil. I hated the way it tasted and smelled it was horrid but since I stopped using I don’t crave for the heroin or think about it but it’s completely different when it comes to the crack cocaine. I now have to manage my cravings and thoughts on it. Even though I know how much destruction and devastation it causes in my life my brain will do it’s very best to get me to try and remember it fondly and take me back to when I first started using it and the rush I would get back then and I have to be on my guard the entire time with that stuff.
My turning point was caused by a few things to be honest. Not being able to get my mental health to improve after the attempts at suicide and after speaking with my son’s mum and her saying and explaining the effect my death would of had on my son was enough for me to realise that I wasn’t going to get better without stopping using and getting help.