I feel like I’m pretty close to completely broken now to be honest,
The fact that the kids we’re involved and I feel like it’s the 3 of them against me when it should be all of us against addiction has really put things in perspective.
It’s so hard to understand her behavior as it is so many things I would just never do,
and she always has the excuse of turning it round saying that I’m trying to control her and change her etc, and I guess to some degree that is true, but only because I want to keep the best her,
I feel like I love one of her , but this other monster in her is my enemy that I hate that steals my girlfriend away, so yeh of course I try and keep that person out of our lives.
she also talks like she thinks I like to have power, yet there is nothing I would like more than to feel she could take responsibility for herself and me to be able to stop worrying about what she might do next as I actually have no desire to control people I just want an easy life and wish people would control themselves.