That’s what they do, twist you up and leave you feeling confused, that you are the one doing wrong. I HAVE BEEN THERE! In just over two short years I had it all, the lies, the abuse, the denials, the broken promises, the JEKYLL AND HYDE. Two people and the want the loving caring beautiful person back. But as long as they want drugs, you won’t get them back .. and she isn’t anywhere near wanting to admit she has a problem so you have to walk away and heal yourself. She may never ever stop taking drugs. How many more years of your life do you want to waste? How mentally and physically ill do you want to get? Ask yourself these questions. You are trying to change a situation an addict doesn’t want to change, all she will do is fight you .. and lie to you.
I really feel for you.. because I’ve been there and have the t-shirt. My partner contacted me today.. telling me ‘everything will be ok’ in a letter. Yeah yeah, we’re nearly 3 years on and I guarantee you this, next week he will go smoke crack. Did I get a present in return (not that I expected one?) no. Why? He’s spent all his money on drugs. So I don’t contact him, don’t answer his calls, don’t reply to texts or letters. He hadn’t yet realised it, but he lost me months back, after a particularly nasty text. I decided.. NO MORE! I deserve better than this.
And so do you David. How many more years of your life do you want to give to someone so undeserving of you and your love?