Hearing your words doesn’t make me feel quite so stupid, because that’s how I feel, stupid and an idiot who has chosen to believe and trust in someone that time again proves me wrong. They say love is blind and they weren’t wrong.
It’s amazing the sober period he had before we married and then other day after our wedding he started drinking again, my family are convinced he was trapping me, I actually question whether he had that thought process but that probably shows you the naive stage I’m still at.
The first ruined occasion you think is just random, the second is surely coincidence, then the pattern starts taking form and I am seeing no good times as the good times are shat all over by them. I feel no choice but to allow him home when he comes out of hospital, I have his daughter here in our home and I just see no other way and I do still love him.
Thank you your words make tots sense and I am glad you have seen your way to your peace, I know how strong I am and will find it too.