[davidk]

you have hit on something I have often wondered there,

is there something in me that attracted me to the chaos?

Did I subconsciously want to try and save someone?

Is that just my nature and would I just repeat it,

and part of me thinks that the strong do need to help those weaker, but you get no thanks for it.

consciously it isn’t what I think I want at all,

and within myself I feel quite at peace,

I also believe in a type of love that perhaps doesn’t exist,

I’m not the most selfless person in normal standards but for the few people I keep close to me I really would do anything.

and that very much does feel one sided.

especially when time and again you come second to drugs.