Hi Purpleheart,
Welcome to the Forum, it’s a great place to start and share your story, lots of people on here in a similar situation.
My Son is an addict, alcohol and cocaine, he is doing ok at the moment, but before he said he needed help life was hell.
I hope you have gone home now, your girls need you as i’m sure you know. I understand completely you sitting in your car, sometimes you just need a bit of time to get things straight in your head.
Do you think your husband wants to stop with the alcohol and cocaine? He is the one that has to do it and find help. There are on line meetings for AA, CA and NA, they run all the time.
Have you got anybody you can confide in? His family perhaps. It’s hard coping all alone with this especially when you have a family. But you are not alone, keep in touch on here, it’s a great place to be able to chat.
I hope you feel better for sharing your story, it helps to get it off your chest. Take care of you and your girls first.
There is also the Icarus Trust who you could chat too.
Take care.
Dx