That’s awful when your brain won’t let you sleep, especially when you’re working the next day. It’s not surprising you are struggling at the moment. How are things at the moment? I believe the last thing you commented was you’d spoken on the phone?
I myself received a call from my husband at 7pm last night, he’s been having really bad seizures in hospital and I was quite upset afterwards worrying he’s going to die so called to speak to his doctor so I could at least try and sleep and they told me he’d had another since I’d spoken to him but not a long one and he was settled to sleep. I felt reassured. Then at 1am he called me to say he was discharging himself, I asked him to pass me to the doctor and they said they couldn’t stop him leaving and I needed to come and meet him to make sure he got home ok, in the wind and rain I walked the 5 minutes to the hospital and he got home fine. He’s still in bed now and had no seizures so far. I think I preferred him in hospital, I had plans today and now feel I need to keep an eye on him in case he fits and dies. What a bloody life to lead.
Do you find it harder not knowing what’s going on and so worrying about her and the children more?