Coco1212, oh dear, I hope the bad news wasn’t too personal to spoil Christmas. I hope you got some joy from the day.
My bf it’s hard to tell. There are subtle changes I look for in his behaviour, but lately I don’t look too hard, I’m trying to give him the benefit of the doubt. Although it’s hard, because I can’t tell you how many times he’s told me he’ll change the addiction, was good for a day or so, then was straight back to it. He’s never actually quit for any real length of time, which is why I just feel now that I’ll believe it when I see it. Again, I try not to say that out loud. If anything, at the moment, I’m not saying anything, so as not to be accused of bringing the elephant into the room as it were.
For my bf though, his voice, face and behaviour changes ever-so-slightly. For example, his voice is quite deep and rounded anyway, but during him smoking and for a little while after, his voice gets super smooth, slightly deeper, but smooth. It’s hard to describe. He’ll also want alcohol and cigarettes, he’ll alternate between the crack, drinking and cigarettes. Secondly, for my bf also, and this may all obviously be very very different for your guy for sure, but for my bf, his face gets longer. As in he’ll stretch out his chin and will have a cheeky smirk stuck there ????, slightly shy at the same time.
In terms of his physical behaviour, while he’s on it he gets super chilled, but his heart is racing, he gets really hot, loses his appetite and makes a point of checking the windows, looking through the curtains – this is him being a satellite. He sort of shuffles around the place checking outside, all hot and smooth voiced. He also gets a bit horny. Not crazy so, but he’ll be a bit more tactile. (Sorry, not trying to sound over personal here).
This all lasts as long as the buzz lasts and just after. After 24hrs after when he started to do it the day before, he gets very agitated, a bit snappy and very introverted. Sometimes, depending on how much he’s had, this is also when he can get a bit sweaty, and he’s not a sweaty person generally, but his forehead will sweat up a bit without much activity. – this isn’t while resting, only if we’re moving about, at the shops, getting ready to go out and he’ll get a bit clammy when he gets in the car. He sort of sweats through his eye sockets too, he’s eyes get shiny.
The more he does for a prolonged period the more the agitation and perspiration is visible. This is the point when I cannot engage in any debate with him, he can be obnoxious and will just bite at anything I say. If he wants something, anything, a drink/food/go somewhere, he’ll get super transfixed about it, no reasoning makes a difference here.
In my bf, these are the affects of his crack use. He doesn’t do the brown as you know, so I guess it depends on what combo and potency your guy does.
I hope it helps in some way. Either way, if he feels he’s doing less, he probably is.
Is there any more news about if he’ll stay at your place or leave the home? – If you don’t mind me asking, I’ve been thinking about that.
Anyway, I hope this all helps.
Sending kindness xxxx