Hi Gypsydoll,
Welcome to the forum, Everyone here has a loved one with addictions or alcohol/drug abuse.
I’m so sorry to read your story. This man should NOT be treating you like this. You do not deserve this.
In my opinion he IS an addict if he needs 8 cans and cocaine daily.
I’m no expert but taking all this daily will definitely mess with his head. He won’t be thinking or acting clearly while he’s doing this, also the comedown from it also messes with their emotions.
My son is 28 and has alcohol and cocaine addictions, we’ve had to deal with the aggression and lies, debt for years. They will always blame us for it.
The truth is, only they can stop it, admit they need help. Start AA and CA online meetings, get support from others, get a sponsor, do the 12 steps. My son says its the only thing that works for him.
He is currently 60odd days clean, it’s really really hard for him, but as long as he’s trying, we will support him.
I think you should tell someone close to you, it’s hard to deal with on your own. Also, you need to stay safe, away from him, look after yourself.
Check the Homepage here for advice or the Icarus trust, they can help you too. Please don’t feel alone in this nightmare.
Read the other stories, you will realise you won’t feel alone any more.
Thinking and praying for you.
Lx