Lol he wasn’t so much thinking of hunting someone down, more paranoid someone could hunt me down I think ha. The paranoid bit is frustrating for me but just the repercussions of abusing yourself with alcohol over a period rather than a complete norm for him. He has always been a little jealous to be fair but some of the crap he’s come out with the last few days has been laughable, just as well I have a sense of humour. He lost his wedding ring putting the rubbish out two nights ago so had to bring it all back in and spent an hour searching through rubbish yesterday, he was quite upset at losing it at the time and I just had a chuckle to myself haha. He did find it eventually.
That’s the trouble you feel totally unappreciated, you’ve spent time and money and put your heart into something that you considered your future with her. It will feel quite devastating at the moment. But I am glad you’re enjoying your furlough, life didn’t furlough me because I’m not disciplined enough to be as proactive like you lol. Sleeping any better? We’ve just moved to tier 4 restrictions today so life is getting tougher to do things, assuming you’re probably the same as most of the country is in 4 now, shocking year generally without the crap we’ve had on top. I’d ask if you’re doing anything nice for new year’s but that would be a joke in itself! I’ll just be glad to get to 2021 and have a degree of hope it’ll be better.
I imagine your lady, if she still is, will probably see it in in some style, well haze anyway. I have a sober repentant man here at the moment, he’s attended meetings every night, got a sponsor and I’ve spoken with a social worker that called and she was satisfied I’ve protected the girls and that he’s just useless when he drinks rather than angry and abusive – all true – so she’s closed the case. I did tell her if it ever came to a choice between him and the girls there is no contest!