As I said, you will get there David. I done nearly 3 years with my partner. There comes a time where you truly realise your own self worth and can see a time when you find someone that loves you and respects you and doesn’t put you second. I saw a perfect quote recently..
As I was fighting for you, I realized I was fighting to be lied to; fighting to be taken for granted; fighting to be disappointed; and fighting to be hurt again…so I started fighting to let go.
If ever a quote summed up my relationship that is it. Why was I fighting for? An abusive angry moody unreliable dishonest weak junkie. No thanks. Rather be alone then unhappy. The peace of mind is priceless.