Hi Hannahlambert,
Welcome to the Forum, a great place to share your story and chat with people in similar situations.
I am the Mum of an addict (alcohol and cocaine). They lie, steal, rack up huge debts and selfish to the core, I know my Son used to chat to endless girls after he had been using, he tells me now that he can’t even remember doing half the stuff when he was using.
I know the addiction is an illness, but it is so hard to live with, most of the time you feel that you are treading on egg shells in your own home. It’s not the way to live especially as you have two young children.
Do any of your family know how you live? It is always good to be able to share with someone close to you.
They have to want to stop and they are the only people that can decide this. There is on line zoom meetings for addiction.
The Icarus Trust are another place where you can talk to people who know exactly what you are going through, never think you are on your own.
Keep in touch on here, I find it really helps.
Take care.
Dx