I also listened to the music on youtube, crying I stopped listening in the middle … even though I hadn’t stayed with him for more than 6 months, I intensely wanted to keep him close, like my cocaine. My source of priceless pleasure, to appease my loneliness, someone to give me hugs, and sleep together (sometimes even with his back to me), which makes me feel alive and with tachycardia, energy, alive. Because alone, I don’t appreciate myself, I feel bored, sad, depressed and tired, useless, going from work to home, and without news, thankless with what I already have, sometimes not giving so much value (just like him). Am I not different from him with cocaine? Then when I smelled him next weekend, new energy, new vigor, sometimes even almost an overdose, but it was my excitement, I was using him as a drug to not be alone or face my own life and like me same! This is how they live, fleeing from themselves, and you get swallowed up in the process by living their lives, not yours. It is hard for David and Thelostone to think that they also addict us, and steal from us. And it turns into rehabilitation daily, not looking at the phone, the social network, not thinking if they are with someone. Well, Thelostone, he’s looking for you, etc., you’re an exception. David, the addiction to run away from ourselves, wasting our lives, by people who don’t want their own lives. Thoughts corrode us as I believe theirs for the drug, just waiting to contact the dealer … and lock themselves in the room to use it. I’m looking to take the advice into practice, let it go every day, right Thelostone, one day at a time, remembering that they are cold and indifferent, and that we deserve much more, people like ourselves, cool, concerned, loving, who look for us too, no ??? I cheer for it, I cheer for the 3 of us, I also think too much like the two of you, and I keep ruminating on things, what consoles me is to know that it is not only about addiction, he is a cold and manipulative psychop # who pretends emotions. I went for a walk today in the park, eating out alone, and chasing thoughts. If you lived here in Brazil, I would call you, for sure.
