these days I thought that it’s easier for him to have given up taking this with me, as he said: I don’t want to take this any further … Because he has cousins, uncles who live here, the partner who is a friend in work, and the dealer I don’t know who he is. So, he is very confined, he always said that he likes his introspection and space even too much, that he knew it was not good, but it was like that, of course, the drug … priority. I have no friends to hang out here. I talk to a friend on WhatsApp. And my friend at work. And you guys here. I don’t have cousins, uncles, my brothers have their things of their own and we don’t have intimacy, because our mother is narcissistic … problems. I live alone with my cats, they distract me. It is easy for him, he has the space to use the drug in the apartment he lives with his divorced brother, his brother … suspicious, but I gave indirect about his brother and cocain. And he likes to be alone, sleep a lot because of the drug effect. In the messages that I saw his cell phone, he contacted girls (prost) website, but he must have already be with some of them … the ones I saw, he didn’t, just asked the price. He expects the woman to take the initiative by the messages I saw whats, I insisted a lot to get to know him. Then they understand our need … he was already using so many days in a row, that he was angry, agitated, complaining about everything and everyone in that victimistic way. I think at the end of the year when he traveled to his city to see his parents, he stayed with some woman there, because if the woman go to him, of course he doesn’t miss the chance. But with me he was no longer working in bed, even as an excuse for me to break up with him, from what I read in articles on narcissism/psychop. We cannot have our life centered on them. I was worried David that you said about them in our mind, God help us and I pray for that, that we will think about ourselves again, because they are there with the cocaine, and they are ok without us. And at some point, they will only have the cocaine… not even family or “friends”, he try to pretend that is a nice man, he is very polite and funny..but to have some secondary gains…and money from his family since they are rich and they just send money! They are a problem… a real one. I’m just upset.
