Hi debc,
Thanks for the reply, it’s just so comforting to hear someone else feeling the same way (in a very weird way).
He really wants help and to get off it so I suppose that’s the bonus here.
I’ve also realised I see it more now after reading stories on here, I understand it more, I realise it’s not me. He didn’t see a problem at the time when he’s messaging them (his words), they were in another country so he didn’t see the problem. He does now! Or he says he does, who knows with addicts, they are very good liars aren’t they.
I think they lye to themselves to make them feel better for their actions. I really want to stick around to see if my old fiancée who I loved with all my heart and who was such a caring person, comes back. The problem is is I’m not sure my mental health can cope anymore or I’m past the point of caring ????♀️.
I haven’t told my family because again I want to see how he goes. Certain people know that will help me, both have been through similar things, so I can draw off them. I don’t want my family seeing him as a bad person, he’s the father of my children and I need to respect this. He’s willing to try and I need to go with this. It’s just hard… x