I think as women we are wired to care for everyone else in detriment to ourselves. Only when we are at our weakest do we then think of ourselves. I know this is me! I am currently seeking help (not because of this), from IAPT and I e seen them before and they are amazing. However when they phoned I had found out about the cheating and told them but didn’t say about the drugs, which now I can see is half of my problem with my mental health. The other half is the fact I have brain damage which can’t be changed. I’m hoping we can get into the couples counselling and for him to see how he’s been treating us for the past 5.5years. Every day I’m feeling stronger and more resilient about leaving him, if I need to I will. I have told him this and I’ll give him his dues he’s said he will help me every step of the way, even financially. He’s always been like that, would never see us go without anything. I think this is partly where it’s come from. Maybe, I don’t know.
This group has helped me no end! Just to know you aren’t alone in how you’re feeling and acting as being neurotic is clearly part of it, reading messages, sneaking looking at their phone. It’s mental! But we do it to keep ourselves sane. Anyways I’m just saying what’s coming in my head and babbling lol. Thank you for the support ????