Hope 1, everything you say is absolutely true and you definitely don’t need alcohol in your life. Look what it has done to your life and decide if it’s really worth doing.
The smell in the morning, every morning for months and for years is demoralising and painful to witness.
People who say if “I don’t drink in a morning” are in denial and absolutely need professional help to cure this addiction. If you drink alcohol in small doses then all that means is you have more will power than the next person. Why do people drink alcohol? To get a buzz! No other reason. Let’s face it, it tastes horrible anyway ????