Hi retroheadz
Thank you for message. Everything you say is sooo true. I’ve done the ultimatum chat but like you say it’s still going on. Yet again he’s going to try again. But in the back of my head I think we both know it’s destroyed us and I doubt it will ever stop. But when u love someone you don’t care so much about yourself as it’s already got into a mind blowing situation and fills me with dread that I ask him to leave. I’m not mentally a very strong person but I feel this is how the cocaine addiction has done to me even tho I’ve never tried or even considered trying it. It’s so hard because you can’t talk to ANY that knows and loves me. There weeks and months and years just past. But I really can’t take anymore lies and I am always on his case a few times a day. The lying that comes with it destroys me.
Thank you for your advice. I really do appreciate all comments and realise that I’m not alone.