Hi hope you are well, thought I would check in and see how you are getting on?
I completely understand so much about you hoping the good person is still in there somewhere, I found and I am still finding that so hards to give up on.
I find myself thinking alot about the good times and the nice things but I have to remind myself that things haven’t been like that for a long time and sometimes holding on is alot harder than letting go.
I feel like I have been stuck on this constant merry go round waiting for that good person and these good times to return but they haven’t. We have had the odd good days but it’s always one step forward then two steps back.
He contacted me recently by text to make a point he was going to work like it’s some huge achievement which it may be to him, but to me it worked every Monday to Friday throughout all the lockdowns and my children are in school while he lays in bed all day, I really didn’t feel like giving him a pat on the back. Just feel resentful. Saying he loves me and misses me, but for how long before the next problem. Always something with an addict and a recovering one. Think I’m ready for a happy quiet life with my kids.