Hi,
thanks for the catch up,
things have been quiet here, so no progress in any way,
I have been keeping busy though so I’m not driving myself as mad as I was a few weeks ago, although still don’t think I’m quite at your stage of acceptance just yet.
I totally feel everything you said though,
to leave them we are finally stepping off of the roller coaster, at last!
and totally know what you mean with feeling annoyed that he is acting like he needs congratulating for bothering to work, but that’s how their minds work, everything needs a reward.
Like nothing is done for its own sake, its always about some impression or reward to be gained from it,
its a bit similar to how people use facebook, which I imagine could fit nicely for the addict brain, the whole posting something and then needing that approval and “likes” etc from others, so nothing is real or pure it is all just about this secondary reward.
I’m glad your ex does at least sound like he wants you back because then you can leave feeling that it was your decision and that you took control,and you can retain some dignity.
as I think I wouldn’t be taking things so badly if I had outright taken that approach, and the fact that she is acting so heartless in it all is what is hurting me the most as that is the part that makes me feel like all the things I done at the end of the day amount to nothing and I am worth less than a drug.