I understand completely what your saying. Do you think maybe she is pushing you away so she doesn’t have to deal with it?
I think whatever the reason, I know for you it might not seem like it. But your better off out of it, right now it’s still fresh and it hurts. But if she doesn’t want that better life it’s always going to be a problem. And your always going to come second to it.
And I know how horrible that is. Normal decent people, talk through problems and worries not just walk away from it all.
Me ex has also done this before, like he always had the upper hand even though he was the addict because my love for him outweighed everything. I just wanted him to be ok and be with us.
Buy I’m finally getting past that now. I didn’t need him in mine and my kids like, I chose to have him there because he made us happy. And he hasn’t done that for a very long time.
It’s good to keep busy, I feel lucky I’m still at work during lockdown. Been cooking good healthy meals and taking some time for myself focusing on my goals. Because we get forgotten in all of this.