Hi Cathsp welcome to the forum. Everyone here has a loved one who has addictions and also some people in recovery giving good support and advice.
Danman83 is so supportive, helped me last year.
I was sorry to read your story, its horrible to see your loved one like this.
If you click on “share your story ” and read the Theresa thread, there are several of us mums with sons with addictions. It just let’s you know that you’re not alone.
Until your son admits he has a problem and needs help, there’s not much we mums can do.
We can reassure them that we love them, but hate what the addiction is doing to them.
In the meantime please look after your own health and well-being. Take pleasure in the little things, a nice walk, a takeaway coffee and cake, something that will please you. Or 5 min meditation videos on phone.
My son has is 29 and has alcohol and cocaine addictions, i know the effect it has on the family.
Thinking and praying for you.
Lx