it is horrendous how similar all the stories of addiction are.
Have you had any counselling
I have spent the last 10 weeks processing the last horrendous year
Sleepless nights waking up heart beating feeling guilty. Posting on here was a massive off load and relief for me.
I feel that finally there is distance and I am turning a corner, the burden of carrying the weight is lifting. The addiction is not mine but you get dragged in like a co conspirator hiding it from everyone. The more that occurs it begins to normalise as they try to assure you loads of people do it and this will be the last time anyway.
Leaving the crack chaotic environment and trying to step into work and function as real normal people do when you are screaming inside. I had to leave my phone off and delete my work number from his phone in the end as I would get calls for money.