Hi,
Thank you for being brave and posting and finding this forum. I hope it’s really helping you as I’m sorry that you have no one around you to talk with. If you would like more help please contact us at Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that offers support to the families who are having to deal with addiction problems. We have experienced and trained people you could talk with if you get in touch. Hopefully that will help you to find a way ahead.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.