I just don’t feel positive, I’m always waiting for a knock at the door and something bad to happen. I have no trust in not just him but anyone.
I feel as though people have been waiting for my downfall and no one wants me to recover.
As for his case worker I was surprised she would say that so but wasn’t what I was surprised by most, what surprised maybe even surprised, shocked me the most was when she stood in front of us both and said you know you could still use a bit and not be addicted. People do use crack and heroin occasionally and not become addicted. I didn’t want to fly off the handle in front of her but I really wanted to say what a stupid thing to say to an addict. Luckily he didn’t say well I can have a but she’s just said so.
Bless you it’s just such a difficult situation and no one can tell you what to do. I’m avoiding speaking to the little family I have left because they always want to bring it up and then it makes me feel uncomfortable and if I don’t give the answer they want it’s world war 3 so then you have to bend the truth a little then if your caught it’s your a liar. I can’t win.
I hope keeping busy is working out for you but just don’t burn yourself out. X