First of all don’t blame yourself nothing you have done has caused any of this. It’s him and him alone.
Everything you have said was me last year I went crazy trying absolutely everything to try and stop the madness of it all.
But it was only myself I hurt the most.
He’s now been clean a little over 5 weeks now but I found on his phone that he’s tried to get some. I’ve told him do it again you are on your own, I will not put my children and self through the pain we went through last year.
They don’t understand what we go through. It changes us too.
Take care x